Everything was a fairy tale. It was last year when I received a strange message from someone. It sparked my interest. It was my first time to experience being wanted by someone. Our first date was in one of the most famous restaurants in Davao. After that first date, I consistently receive text messages and calls from him. From that time on, I won't deny, my feelings have started to grow. Days past, he told me that he wanted to meet my parents and friends to show his clear intentions. The date was set and that was on September 22, 2012.
September 22, 2012 has come. I was at school but I was really nervous that day. He brought me flowers and a box of cake. I was blushing. I was shock. It was unbelievable. I never thought someone would make me feel as happy as I was feeling at that moment. It was 6 pm when we finally arrived home. My parents gladly welcomed him. We ate dinner. After feeling full, my friends asked him if he really liked me. He was tormented with so many questions from four of my friends plus my brother. I felt so elated because I thought he's the perfect one. It was 8 pm when the grueling interview has finally stopped. My friends decided to go home so that we can both talk. He promised me he'll never hurt me. I was a fool to believe him instantly. Everything was just too fast till he asked me the most important question of the night " Lea Marie Sabroso, will you be my girlfriend?" I was very naive. I didn't think twice. I just said YES!
Oh! I can't believe it! After 21 yrs, someone came to show me his love. It was like a fairytale. The first month was perfect. Consistent text messages, constant i love you's, I can absolutely say I was really, really happy. We had our first fight when he was sharing the things he was doing with his past. I was so surprised by my reaction. I suddenly got angry at him. Even if he made me sad, he did everything to make me happy again. Later on, our relationship has grown older, we started to discover each others weaknesses and strengths but we still continued to be together. Friends are saying that we're a perfect couple. We're destined for each other and I agreed with them. I felt like he's the man I'm gonna marry someday.
The time came, when I started to become really busy. He was also busy. There were times when promises have started to be broken. We started to face bigger problems but we remained strong. There were times, I wanna give up but he chose to say sorry and everything's okay again. We argue on petty things but we kiss and make up after few days.
This month, the month of August, he has started to be cold. It seems like he is not the same person I loved before. I finally realized the reason of his sudden change. I shouted at him because I was really angry. I know that this problem is not something petty. Up until now, we're still not okay. I was begging him to choose me instead of the other woman but he chose her over me. Now, I'm totally devastated. I thought we'll be together forever. Now, I know it was just a lie. I was wondering if he really did love me. I thought I had the best. I'm broken to the core and I hate him for making me feel this way. I can't understand why? I have so many questions in my head. I asked him in a nice way, in a harsh way or in any way that can provoke him to answer me but I didn't get any explanations. I don't want to believe in his alibi's because my trust has all gone. I'm going crazy right now. It's very painful on my part. I can't explain how I feel but I know I am hurt. The pain is just so unexplainable. I wish I could be every little thing he wanted but I was not. I hope I'll be healed. I wanna be happy again, even if it means he's not with me anymore.
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