The Song Reminds Me of You

As I was browsing Youtube today, I unfortunately found the song No Ordinary Love. The message of the song was really good. It's even one of the best love songs. I loved this song before. This was so meaningful to me. This was the perfect song to explain how I feel for him. He was my first love, my everything. It's a sad fact that he left me now. It still hurts me. It still torments my soul. If I could turn back time, I would like to go back to the happy moments we had. I miss saying I love you to him. I miss taking care of  him. I miss hugging and kissing  him. I miss his voice. I miss everything about  him. I miss us. I hope you are doing well. Please take care of yourself. How do I un love you? I still don't know yet.

The Unexpected Goodbye

While everybody was enjoying their Christmas celebration, there I was crying in pain. The man that I loved the most left me. He has given up on me. I can't blame him. I have the worst attitude in relationships. My first boyfriend, the man who said he'll marry me, the man who promised to be with me through thick and thin has finally decided to leave me.

I did my best to make him stay. I begged. I cried bucket of tears. I ask him for one last chance but it was over. I feel bad about myself. I wish I didn't hurt him too much. If only I treated him well maybe we will still be together. Everything was unexpected. He said good bye and I can't do anything with it.

I got sad. I hated myself but what can I do.

After being hurt for a couple of days, I started to pick myself up and stand up again. I know it will not be easy for me to forget him. A part of me has died when he left. However, life is still great. I just hope to move on fast. I don't want to cry anymore because it is very tiresome. I wish him well and I always pray for him to be healed. 

I'm just sad that it ended this way. :'(

One Year

I am happy. Tomorrow is our " FIRST YEAR ANNIVERSARY"

Yipee! I am thankful. Finally a rainbow has come after a big storm.

I hope it will not happen again. 

I just need to think positively. 

I'm crossing my fingers now, hoping and praying for our relationship to become stronger and so much better :D

stronger. :D

Even the Best Fall Down Sometimes

Everything was a fairy tale. It was last year when I received a strange message from someone. It sparked my interest. It was my first time to experience being wanted by someone. Our first date was in one of the most famous restaurants in Davao.  After that first date, I consistently receive text messages and calls from him. From that time on, I won't deny, my feelings have started to grow. Days past, he told me that he wanted to meet my parents and friends to show his clear intentions. The date was set and that was on September 22, 2012.
September 22, 2012 has come. I was at school but I was really nervous that day. He brought me flowers and a box of cake. I was blushing. I was shock. It was unbelievable. I never thought someone would make me feel as happy as I was feeling at that moment. It was 6 pm when we finally arrived home. My parents gladly welcomed him. We ate dinner. After feeling full, my friends asked him if he really liked me. He was tormented with so many questions from four of my friends plus my brother. I felt so elated because I thought he's the perfect one. It was 8 pm when the grueling interview has finally stopped. My friends decided to go home so that we can both talk. He promised me he'll never hurt me. I was a fool to believe him instantly. Everything was just too fast till he asked me the most important question of the night " Lea Marie Sabroso, will you be my girlfriend?" I was very naive. I didn't think twice. I just said YES!

Oh! I can't believe it! After 21 yrs, someone came to show me his love. It was like a fairytale. The first month was perfect. Consistent text messages, constant i love  you's, I can absolutely say I was really, really happy. We had our first fight when he was sharing the things he was doing with his past. I was so surprised by my reaction. I suddenly got angry at him. Even if he made me sad, he did everything to make me happy again. Later on, our relationship has grown older, we started to discover each others weaknesses and strengths but we still continued to be together. Friends are saying that we're a perfect couple. We're destined for each other and I agreed with them. I felt like he's the man I'm gonna marry someday.

The time came, when I started to become really busy. He was also busy. There were times when promises have started to be broken. We started to face bigger problems but we remained strong. There were times, I wanna give up but he chose to say sorry and everything's okay again. We argue on petty things but we kiss and make up after  few days.

This month, the month of August, he has started to be cold. It seems like he is not the same person I loved before. I finally realized the reason of his sudden change. I shouted at him because I was really angry. I know that this problem is not something petty. Up until now, we're still not okay. I was begging him to choose me instead of the other woman but he chose her over me. Now, I'm totally devastated. I thought we'll be together forever. Now, I know it was just a lie. I was wondering if he really did love me. I thought I had the best. I'm broken to the core and I hate him for making me feel this way. I can't understand why? I have so many questions in my head. I asked him in a nice way, in a harsh way or in any way that can provoke him to answer me but I didn't get any explanations. I don't want to believe in his alibi's because my trust has all gone. I'm going crazy right now. It's very painful on my part. I can't explain how I feel but I know I am hurt. The pain is just so unexplainable. I wish I could be every little thing he wanted but I was not. I hope I'll be healed. I wanna be happy again, even if it means he's not with me anymore.

The Sukiyaki Song

It's all because of you,

I'm feeling sad and blue 

You went away, 

Now my life is just a rainy day and I love you so, 

How much you'll never know 

You've gone away and left me lonely. 

Untouchable memories

Seem to keep haunting me 

Another love so true, 

That once turned all my gray skies blue 

But you disappeared, 

Now my eyes are filled with tears 

And I'm wishing you were here 

With me soaked with love all my thoughts of you 

Now that you're gone I just don't know what to do 

If only you were here, 

You'd wash away my tears 

The sun would shine, 

Once again you'll be mine all mine 

But in reality, you and I will never be cos 

You took your love away from me.

Chorus

Girl, I don't know what I did to make you leave me 

But what I do know is 

That since you've been gone there's such an emptiness inside, 

I'm wishing you to come back to me.

If only you were here, 

You'd wash away my tears

The sun would shine,

Once again you'll be mine all mine

But in reality, 

You and I will never be cos 

You took your love away from me. 

Oh -- Baby you took your love away from me.

source: http://www.lyricsondemand.com/

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